Now that I am back home and still pursuing acting over a more stable career, I am getting slightly stressed out about not doing enough, which leads to me making a lot of lists and feeling like I have an overwhelming amount of things to do. It is lucky that I have a mild case of OCD, because I really like checking items off my list, so things seem to be getting done.
I have been back from Los Angeles for 2 weeks, and have already been on two auditions. The second one was Monday night, and I did the scenes 4 times, which I hope means they saw something in me, because why else would they let me do it over and over again? Either way, the more auditions I go on, the less scary auditioning becomes, and I can actually embrace being able to live another life. It probably isn’t a good idea that I don’t expect to get the part (so that I’m not disappointed if I don’t) because people keep telling me that the universe listens to the thoughts we put out. So my “I dare you not to cast me, but I don’t actually expect you to” approach needs to be adjusted. Anthony Meindl clearly knew what he was talking about when he said it is our fear of success that keeps us from reaching our dreams, and not our fear of failure, because we fail all the time, and get used to it. Success is the scary unknown. So, from now on, I will get more invested in the outcome, which will hurt a lot more than assuming I’m not getting the part, but if it leads to me getting to do what I love, then the pain will be worth it.
After my post last week, I emailed a lot of the agents from the ACTRA website with my headshot and CV, asking for representation. So far, I have only gotten two rejections (apparently their rosters are currently full), but I am still waiting on more answers, and I will just have to keep resubmitting myself as I build up a solid body of work, as I currently have a lot more on the training side.
I also sent out two packages in the mail to a casting director who is casting two projects that I would really love to be a part of. It might be overkill, but you miss all of the shots you don’t take, so I gave it a try. I am going to wait a few days to see if I get a reply, then I will start calling some Casting Directors to see if I can intern or work for them. Backstage had an article last week about getting a job in the industry while you wait for your acting career to take off, so that is what I plan to do (unless of course I get the parts I am auditioning for and spend so much time on set, acting, that I simply don’t have time for a day job 😉 )
The rest of my week was mostly spent at an RV show in Ottawa, prepping for my audition and learning my lines for the Tom Todoroff One Day Intensive in March. Pretty productive on the administrative front, but I can’t wait to get back into class tomorrow with Suzanna Lenir, where I will hopefully get to see some old friends, and make some new ones. I also have a coffee date planned with a fellow actress, so she can pick my brain about LA, and I can grill her about the Montreal scene, which I am slowly but surely trying to figure out!
As a side note, I want to congratulate all of my fellow ISPers who are going out there and making it happen, be it by booking feature films and guest spots, doing Master Intensives with Margie, auditioning like crazy or moving to LA, I miss you all and am so proud of you!