I am going to start this post with a confession I am not proud of, especially considering what I wrote last week. I didn’t go to my stunt class last Friday. I had originally wanted to wait until Saturday for a new post, so you maybe wouldn’t notice that I’d stayed home instead. I wasn’t injured, I had no schedule conflicts, I just stayed home. I’m pretty sure I could have gotten away with not mentioning it, but although I try to hold myself accountable to whoever reads this, I also need to be held accountable to myself, so lying to you doesn’t change the facts.
To compensate for not going, after a slightly lazy Thanksgiving weekend, I have been lifting weights, working on my core and using my Zombie 5k app every day. By the end of it, I should be able to run 5k. I am nowhere near that yet, but hopefully I will have an easier time on Friday.
On Tuesday I did my scene from Notting Hill, which I watched this morning. A comment I got last week was to be more b!tchy, so I worked on that, but let the emotions that make her act that way slide. I need to trust that by living the life of Anna Scott, I will feel what I am supposed to feel, instead of working on being a certain way. I will attempt that for the audition class, and in the meantime, I have to prepare for next week, where I have to start off the scene crying. I think it might be easier than starting to cry in the middle of the scene, and also, the situation kind of warrants it. She is kind of having a meltdown 🙂
It has been a pretty quiet week otherwise, with working, writing, reading plays and stuff. I had a lot of issues of Backstage that I finally got to reading, and I have been trying to decide what I should do. I sometimes get this feeling like acting isn’t going to work out and I am just sitting here wasting my life. When this happens, I feel like I need to do something drastic to remedy it. Currently, I am trying to decide if I should maybe spend a month or so interning in LA, or a class in London, or…this will either blow over when I get my next acting victory, or will lead to an amazing experience. I’ll keep you posted 😉
“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”